As always I have been lax in recording my thoughts in this journal, forgetting about it entirely for months at a time. I think I shall have to correct that.
I have come upon quite the realization, from reading the numerous entries about my misgivings, my fears and my weaknesses here, I have become rather disgusted with myself! I lived out a good part of my mortal life as a murderess, dealing with the most dangerous of men while juggling the numerous other aspects of my life with cunning and total confidence, why now should I back down and succumb to my darker feelings? I have my weaknesses and, as all others, have had my moments of self doubt and shame but these do not rule me, the strength of will and mind that will forever reside in me shall shine brightly.
As of this very moment I refuse to let what small weaknesses I have in me show, I am strong, I have survived and to what ever the higher power there is I swear that I will reveal this to all who have had the displeasure of witnessing my, often as of late, rather spineless displays.
I will, of course, always hold within me the multitude of feelings that plague and comfort me but I will hold a much tighter reign on it all. My love will still run as deep, my anger as hot and my sadness as chillingly cold but there will be a new strength in the way that I am seen....the rock solidness of my heart and soul plain to all.
A short entry, I know, but now is a time for change not reflection, a time for those that have thought me weak to be quite disappointed.
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